i keep hearing a phone vibrating.
just one vibration
then it stops
and it comes back at regular intervals
my mom hears it too so i'm not nutsy.
maybe some guy has a saw and is at the appropriate distance away from my room to make that noise?
i think my grandma's new air compressor is to blame.
whatever the case, it is annoying and combined with my hunger is driving me to snap at people.
there it goes again.
balls.

today was nice so far!
i blew off mercer and went to the sourlands for some "me" time.
i wore a skirt today so i had to tuck it up there while climbing rocks.
good thing i was alone!
it was weird how i decided to go there.
i got home and i was on the computer
then i said
"i have to go somewhere"
so i just drove
and i ended up at the montgomery sourlands.
hmm.
i also planted PEEZ
all over my yard.
fuzz helped and it was much appreciated.
i love him.
it was really weird
while we were planting, this ginormous wind came blowing through.
it hasn't been windy all day, and then all the sudden it was a gale from the east!
it was like something very far away exploded and sent a blast our way.
yikes!
tonight i will probably continue to not write my essay for mr. o'brien
and
i don't know
other lazy crunch things.
because fuzz is at his dad's
so i can't see him! :(
i am typing all weird today.
here's a picture 2 pictures for you:

http://www.agonybooth.com/recaps/Santa_and_the_Ice_Cream_Bunny_1972.aspx

ok, so, pretty much i just take what is on wfmu's beware of the blog and repost it here.

"i love expression when people are trying to express something
i don't love expression just because people CAN express something"

he was talking about vague art and how he doesn't like it when people are vague on purpose or try to make it look like they're expressing something that they're really not.

thanks, guy!

ok, so, adding to the incredible wowness of the nice spring day, we found an abandoned quarry that looked like jurassic park or some shit like that with these giant carved away layered rock walls and jillions of rocks strewn everywhere. it looked like all my legos dumped out. it was HEE---YOUGE and also a really really cool place and it was totally abandoned and forsooth very beautiful .... i am suffering from allergies and they make me really sniffly and stuffed and have no desire to fuck at all and it is SOLAME. SOLAME, California, perhaps? anyways they will probably be done soon. i am thinking of investing in a portable recording apparatus for the purpose of capturing sounds that i hear.
i really like emily dickinson. did you ever feel just so close to an author? like you really wanted to meet them because you know you guys would be friends? yeah, that's me and emily. we'd be bffs through the privacy hedge. and mark twain is another one of those kinds of people. i have always wanted to hug mark twain. like, a running hug. so hey, all you mark twain impersonators, you could get a hug if you just came to new jersey! i think that's how you're supposed to feel when you read somebody's writing. i know it's also good to be able to separate the author from the work, but it's so personal and it comes from such a near and dear place that how could you not feel like you love them? i am also really, reallu warming up to the idea of being an american. especially lately, i have just been so into my national identity. i think what we've established is such a beautiful, totally imperfect and down-to-earth personality! i identify very strongly with it. no, not this america-


THIS america!


i wrote about this somewhere else but now i have to poop
maybe you'll get to see it later!

http://radaronline.com/from-the-magazine/2008/04/letter_to_charles_manson_richard_ramirez_ted_kacyinski_bill.php

AND THEN, LIKE, LAUGHING AND STUFF.

hi.
i saw a bluebird today and it was really pretty. they're such a weird color, kind of like my hair.

i don't think it's weird or wrong for girls to masturbate (guys too, go ahead.). why should it be such a taboo? are our bodies supposed to remain a mystery to us? i'm an american, i've got walt whitman in my heritage, and i think the individual is the most important thing there is. i think i'm beautiful. i think you're beautiful how you are! PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID TO MASTURBATE! touch yourself! don't be ashamed of orgasms that aren't initiated by a dick! love yourself, kids, because you deserve to be loved! i know this is hopewell valley and we're supposed to look aloof and clean at all times, and maybe our moms and teachers didn't talk to us about this or something(mine didn't. and that's fine, i still love them.), but we have to discover it through ourselves. it's so important, because if you don't know yourself you don't know anybody. there is nothing repulsive about you! even bloody, clotty periods that make you fart! even GIANT turds that look like the letter J! ok yeah they're kind of smelly, and they're also really funny and i laugh at them all the time, but they're YOURS (that's why they're so great)! i fart proudly and i masturbate, friends! and if you want to avoid me in the hallway because you can envision me doing what we all know girls don't do because it's unclean and below them, that's ok. since people already avoid me because of my hair or the loud, high pitched tones that often come out of my mouth, i'll get more room to walk. if you squirmed while reading this, that's ok. please, just think about what's making you uncomfortable. and think about why. i think that our bodies and our various squirty parts and the things that make us feel good are important to talk about not just privately in low voices but in public. to my friends and my lovers and whoever reads this stinky digital notebook of mine. i know that as long as i'm thinking about it and talking about it i'm not doing anything wrong. and i love you all, i'm not accusing anybody. and i'm open to an open discussion, involving openness. anytime.

also, this picture:



i gave mr. o'brien my photos of walden pond, this being among them. it's such a beautiful place when all the russian tourists and school groups are not there sunning themselves and taking irreverent photos of each other.

jinkies, i'm tired. bed.

i am sooooo hungry but i can't leave until this video renders.
i want to munch.
munch.
munch.

i saw kimya dawson again! she's so amazing.
the first opening band, l'orchidee d'hawai, was so great! i got their CD and it rocks so hard. i love "angelare", and i keep singing it. it's a medieval italian song that they performed.
( l'orchidee d'hawai )

then angelo spencer played as always, and he had some new songs that it made me happy to hear.
( angelo spencer )

and then kimya! i love her! she was accompanied by matty pop chart on the xylophone..played with sharpie markers! he also played 2 of his own songs, which made me think back to when i first saw him play in the basement of the first unitarian church a few years ago. i like him. p.s. he also got shocked by his guitar.
my camera had issues...so these pictures are, shall we say, "lacking". and what are they lacking, you might ask? LIGHT!!
( kimya dawson! )

that little girl hiding behind kimya dawson in the first picture is named sequoia. she sang along with....oh my god i forget the song...but she did and it was very cute.

i had a lot of fun. and nathan did too!!

yay it's audio class
wew hew for audio class
oh wow it's so great
i think i might just explode
because it's so nosehair-waxing cool

i got kuh-lime-ing shoes with nathan today. now it's official! i am a bowl-der-er!
i took out a camera from mercer and did absolutely nah-thing with it all weekend. and a flash recorder. poopsters. what a waste.

we played zombie darts tonight at the church. you have no idea what i'm talking about, but let me tell you that it was fun and actually scary!

i am going to emerson soOoOo soon. oh god i am psyched. my aunt told me that nina and max are calling their 3rd floor bedroom "hana's room". i can't wait to live near those guys!!!

and for those of you who were wondering what color my hairs will be next: TEAL! TEAL IT SHALL BE! amanda rock actually offered to do it for me for free at votec. i am a little nervous but i trust she knows what she's doing since she has nice hair :D my mom wanted me to tip her. do you tip a girl who is in your ir class?

i found a whole monarch butterfly in the bushes at the watershed. just chilling there, totally dead. he's mine now. :)

ALL OF YOU SHOULD COME TO THE TAEKWONDO DEMO
APRIL 18 2008
6 PM
TIMBERLANE MIDDLE SCHOOL GYM

i promise you backflips (just...not by me. by elijah. and i've seen it, it's the real deal. solid.)

wweeeeeeeelll that's about it. this week looks promising.
sayonara, suckers!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwgvfp3jlvc

lol. i'm going to bed now.

so.
danny tamberelli is in a band called jounce.
listen to them jam:
http://ia360619.us.archive.org/3/items/joz2007-08-18/joz2007-08-18d1t08.mp3
and
http://ia360618.us.archive.org/3/items/joz2007-08-18/joz2007-08-18d1t02.mp3
eeee!
rock and roll has made me whole.

i wasted time with people tonight. we kind of did nothing, but in a fun way that i like. and now i've got lots of wee baby cuts from hiking.

i got a bunch of miracle legion albums and the soundtrack for pete & pete.
can you see what kind of kick i am on today?
good for you if you can.
pictures...there must be pictures.


this is my back
i have these dimples there on my back and nathan made them into cute.

i have a plate of raviolis
and i was reading and they slid together as one blob towards my lap
it was a close one!

we have been lanning at mikee's
i have fun now that my compy works.

OH POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

p.s. i made something shitty:
http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=10487751

i have been blowing my nose so much that i think my nostrils are turning into leather.
i've been making banners for people on etsy.com.
for a little moneee.
i dunno, that's pretty much it.
happy no school week!